Hello, I suppose this is where I should introduce myself, as it is the first post on this blog. It's weird because I feel I need to tell "you" about myself (my life, the person I think I am, what made me this way, my hopes and dreams......) but yet I feel it's stupid because I have no intention of sharing this, so who am I talking to? Also I suppose I'd prefer not to bring back memories. I feel to explain truly who I am I'd have to start the usual long explanation of everywhere I have lived and why I have moved, it feels very repetitive now because every new person I encounter I need to start the same way: Hello, my name is Samantha, I'm not like everyone else because I'm Spanglish, I have lived here and there then went back then left then bla bla bla bla... And although this is part of the reason I have become who I am, I don't like it to be the introduction of my life and of my person, yet I have no choice. So yes, I want to avoid that part, each section of my life is defined my a new house, a new place to live, and everything that happened or didn't happen as a consequence of that. I can't give any short answers with ice-breakers when I meet someone... Usually, normal people are like: "So, where are you from?", expecting you to say "I'm from (random place)". (You know, the usual small talk chit chat that they ask to be polite and aren't actually too bothered.) And I have no choice but to start "Well, technically I was born in... then we moved to ... and then to... then back to... (long etc)". And then they ask why. Well you can't blame them to be honest, it's not your usual answer that's for sure. And then I don't have a straight forward answer yet again. Some people have asked me if my parents are military or something like that. Nope. It's all a big jumble between "Just-Because" and "Hey-Why-Not". And now I'm cool with that, but trying to explain it all, sort of makes me mention a lot of drama and personal things in between, which you don't usually share with a stranger when they're trying to chat just to be polite... So what is best, should I maybe just choose one place and have a short answer? I suppose I'd feel like I'm lying a little, because I am not one place, I am everywhere I have ever lived, everywhere I have ever visited and everywhere I would have liked to have gone instead (lol).
To know me you have to know my story, my story started somewhere and one day will end somewhere. My story is the places I have been, the people I have met, the words that I have been told and the eyes that witness it all. This is my story, I didn't choose most of it (not that I believe in destiny), but this is the life I am living. I'm grateful for a lot, regrette some and now I'm waiting to see what other paths this life of mine will take.
So yeah, Hi, I'm Samantha. Mother of 2 under 3's. 25. Spanglish and a little messed-up. I hope you enjoy reading me and I apologise in advance for any way-too-personal moments I may share on this page if you happen to stumble across it.
